Your words about feeling like you didn't fit in with the kingdom of God really rang true for me. While I did blend in and be quiet for the most part (didn't have your courage in my early years), I always felt that at any moment, I would be found out as being "not the right kind of woman." It is so sad to me to look back on how much I felt "not good enough." I still struggle with this. Having been visiting my family recently, and being back in my childhood setting, I was amazed at how much those roots are still there, how much pain is still tied to the expectations of family and leaders.
Your words about feeling like you didn't fit in with the kingdom of God really rang true for me. While I did blend in and be quiet for the most part (didn't have your courage in my early years), I always felt that at any moment, I would be found out as being "not the right kind of woman." It is so sad to me to look back on how much I felt "not good enough." I still struggle with this. Having been visiting my family recently, and being back in my childhood setting, I was amazed at how much those roots are still there, how much pain is still tied to the expectations of family and leaders.
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